For every hurdle "there is a way to jump it!!"

Whether its a shallow jump or a mighty stretch of one,

"there is a way to jump it!!"

It may be a tough one since I'm very limited on time an resources, but....

"there is a way to jump it"!!

When I was around seventeen, this very strong urge came over me to just get up and go.

Nothing else mattered, all I knew is I had to get out of here and "right now".

I didn't know where, or why i would even want to leave,

and was confused on what could have brought on this sudden rush of anxieity.

This unseen force of gravity trying its darnedest to pull me away from everything I've ever known,

all the people that I've ever loved,

all the places i was framiliar with.

It wanted to tear me away from the reality of my life as I knew it..........

and it didn't stop there.

It drove me crazy as i remember,

for around a week.
I kept wanting to leave everyone I knew and cared about.
It even was strong enough to make me not worry about losing my job.........

and anyone who knows me good enough,

would know when i say some thing like that, some things up........
I had no thought or care for the ones who would notice and experience

my presence missing from there lives.
No feelings of regret or remorse.

No Curiosity No fear...

Fear of arrest

Fear of dissapointment

of mislead

Fear of solitude

Fear of accident

of injury

No fear of abuse

or of rape.....
My mind kept on trying to detour the connection

that the useen had bestowed upon me,

yet it had no effect on its grasp to my spirit,

for where I was to go that day i have never made it....
because I never listened to that

yearning

calling

destiny

fate

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For since that unseen has latched to my very existance,

I have ignored it and suppressed it,

and it has done nothing but bug the hell out of me.

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"Theres no such thing as coincidences,

its meant to happen,

or you make it happen,

if not it never will"

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that is my life philosophy as of right now,
it refers to luck
it refers to love
it even refers to unwanted or unneeded happenings,
but most of all it refers to life.....

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your soul picks the life you are to live,

lives you are to change,

change that effects the whole world....

the universe as a whole.....

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This is just the way i veiw the world,

and the beings in, and on it....

~*REDFEATHER*~

07-05-2006