has and has not

is an is not

will an will not

:

:

it is always one or the other

:

:

never in between

:

:

because there is no such thing

as

:

ALWAYS

:

or

:

NEVER!!!

:

:

:

But thats just how the world spins,

the way its not supposted to.

:

you can look for an apple with no spots,

but will keep searching til you die.

:

you can have some one tell you they love you,

but expect them to lie.

:

ask the man of your dreams out,

an he'll say when pigs fly.

:

think you have a friend an let all your walls down,

and then they will roll the dice.

:

think every thing in your life is going good for a change,

thats the beginning of when you'll sigh.

:

find the object you have been dreaming of,

but be a dollar shy.

:

think you have a true friend that knows you truely,

an they didnt see you shine.

:

your finnaly getting along with your mother,

then she'll draw the line.

:

think your preacher is the best,

till you catch him at the club high.

:

after you live your life then is when you will ask,

WHY??

:

:

:

:

:

:

:

:

:

:

it is because that is just how the human race is,

homosapiens are not

just

righteous

upright

good

honorable

honest

worth

exemplary

noble

right-minded

good-hearted

dutiful

trustworthy

equitable

scrupulous

conscienctious

ethical

fair

impartial

commendable

praiseworthy

guiltless

blameless

sinless

peerless

sterling

matchless

deserving

laudable

creditable

charitable

philanthropic

sane

loving

:

:

:

an most of all....

:

LOYAL

:

:

everyone seems to be all the same,

you trust them to trust you,

you tell them your deepest thoughts,

you deepest emotions,

and even beliefs....

:

and they ground you like your nothing to them.

:

you try your hardest to show them you are trying your very best to help them,

and they call you conceded when you think you might have helped.

:

when you are only trying to let them know you care.....

:

not like you went around to everyone you know,

an everyone you met saying you helped some one,

JUST to get attention

:

cause you didn't

:

you just wanted to let that person know you tried to help....

:but instead you get slapped in the face.

:

being a caring person is a really hard thing to do

:

it happens an awful lot,

when people take you that way,

it just dont seem right.

:

you wanna help,

but then you hesitate,

wondering if or not they will see your true colors,

or if they call you fake?

:

:

it happens,

it is life,

and there is nothing you can do but one of two things...

:

:

:

you can

:

one

be honest and faithful to your friends and help them to the best of your ability

:

:

OR

:

:

two

put up all walls possible, an stay out of harms way at all cost of being hurt

:

:

I am at a cross road now,

and until i find out my health cant bear being a good friend any longer...

i will be the way i am til i die....

and that may be tomarrow

:

what ever the creator wishes my soul

:

my soul will be retrieved when god wants to pull it out

and that is all there is to say

:

if i die tomarrow,

my friends can read the cause,

and

the love i have for man kind

no matter what

i will be one who is

and always will be

loved by many.

:

:

just dont worry if i do pass

i will watch over you still

as in death

as in life

:

it is just a renewal

of

:

my love for all of you

:

take care always

:

:

:

;

:

an

:

good-nite
:

redfeather

08/17/2006