i have been having appetite problems lately and have felt the need to pray deep about a big decision i have considered making. i am going on the longest walk and have been trying to work things out before i leave. Getting money right now is hard with the economy being in recession. I'm thinking about calling gary a guy that offered me to help him and he would pay me to help him get trees cut down. At first i didn't like the idea but I've known him for years and never knew what he did. I used to help him all the time an chat with him at my job an the jobs before that.
The like for the longest walk is, http://longestwalk2008.com
I started my fast on Friday April 4th and did not know it till Saturday morning. I felt god was telling me to fast and so i went with it. All the pain in my hip has went away and same with my shoulders. They were paining me without even being on register. I think all the toxins in my system was a leading factor. i am less than an hour away from ending my fast. I have had nothing but water since Friday night, and a small cup of juice Sunday morning and this morning only because i felt ill and shaky, problems such as diabetes run in my family so i wanted to raise my blood sugar a little bit.
i went outside and prayed a little while today to help end my fastening.
Monday, April 07, 2008
3 day fast
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Labels: fast, prayer, the longest walk 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
missing someone close to my heart
well i dont know how things are going to be headed with the guy i was talking to.. that i was interested in... i have no clue if he is still interested in me, but eh if he decides he is not interested im going to like i decided before to take a break from it all an let myself grow closer with god. I miss my creator an i know for sure he misses me. That was my new years resolution and ive been keeping with it just not as closely as id like. Something in the back of my mind is telling me to just go to the wind an listen to all to what the spirits have to tell me. Many teachings they have taught me yet. and that i have yet to learn. Things have been tough with temptation and I know now where i stand with this thorn in my flesh. Is to please others so that i may be loved. Now i know that i can be loved without it, but to be loved by another whom has flesh is such longed for. Just i feel and am pressured to give the fruits of my flesh so that i may be loved equally by whom i give my affections to. Seems there is no love without sex now a days. My luck, i thought for a while that a friend of mine would have given me sweet love without expecting more, but he told me that he never goes agianst his word, that he would never love someone, and that he had to have sex in a relationship... he has now since went to texas. I very much miss him... as a friend mainly... i miss our converstaions and our laughs... our small short lived quarrels... and our shared griefs. Only thing i dont miss about him was how he assumed all women were the same... an how much a pessimist he was... seemed he could find no good in anything... and that beauty was no where to be found rather than searching for beauty in life right in front of him... sigh*
Its really hard for me to let go of people whom i hold close to my heart. I will never forget him an i hope we come to terms with each other. Hurst so much that he didnt believe me when i told him why i couldnt date him at that time. Hurt so much i acctually took his threats an obscene false accusations as an idea... an now i dont know where they are going... I know for sure that god has a plan for us an i hope dearly that he takes care of my big bad wolf... metal head... sigh*
ever time i hear one of the songs that was on his profile or that we exchanged i pray for him an his dreams. I see he did get one... an that was texas. :)
oh well we will see what happens
til then i will feel a place in my heart empty, for he helped me become who i am now. an now one knows that better than myself
for now... til later... walk in beauty... and take care of yours an your own
with love always
tiffany redfeather
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Monday, March 10, 2008
frustration
well all its been a good while since i posted. Due to a complete disaster from viruses and men.... here i am yet again! ha yea im still around. the google thing did not help matters!
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Monday, January 22, 2007
sweet hearts... tomarrow, tomarrow is gonna bring


ok all i think im gonna do some more later on.... :)
here is another pic of me to look at.... ha like you all wanna see me!! lmao
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i love.... can you guess?
originally posted on december 05,2006 on myspace
i previously posted this as a bullitan. lets see if the public replys more to this one!!! ok all.... including non friends.... guess who i am talking about!!! an i will have no problem adding you~
can you guess who i am talking about... please read all of it then figure it out.
I LOVE
I love the way he makes me feel
i love the things he does
i love how he does the things he does
i love how he loves me
i love how much fun we have together
i love how he cares for others like there is no tomarrow
i love how he cares for me when i am sick
i love how when i ask for help he is always there
i love how he doesnt have any secrets
i love how he tells his stories
i love how he tells the truth
i love how he cares for me
i love how when i ask for help he is always there
i love when i ask for advise his is always the best
i love his promises he makes me
i love how he can never stay mad at me
i love the way he shows his affection
i love the way he touches my heart
i love the good things he does for people
i love the good things he does for me
i love how conciderate he is
i love how ill never be able to say how much i love about him!! :)
i love how i can always turn to him
i love the way he always provides for me
i love how he can never lie, you can tell
i love why he does these things he does
i love the way he guides me ever step of the way
i love the things he sends me
i love how he lets me do what i want
i love him for being him
i love the people he sets me up with
i love how he has changed me
i love how he brings me up when i am down
i love the way he makes me change my mind
i love the way he answers my questions
i love the way things just seem to unfold when i am at his side
i love how he sticks with me no matter how much i want him to go away sometimes
i love gifts hes givin me
i love the choices hes helped me decide
i love how he touches lives
i love how he has touched mine
i love the things he has made for me
i love how he continues to change me
i love the way he fixes things when you think they are broken forever
i love the Opportunities he throws my way
i love the way he makes me see things in a diffrent light
i love how he shows me things ive never seen before
i love how he speaks
i love how people love him
i love how people "try" to hate him
i love how he betters me
i love how he makes me see how much i have, even when i have so little compared to many
i love the way he feeds me
i love the colors he brings forth
i love how he gets jealous when i love another like i love him
i love the things he has made everyone else
i love how he makes me smile
i love the way he makes things taste
i love the talents he has taught me
i love the way he makes music sound
i love how he never does me wrong
i love the way he makes my hair feel
i love how he would never stear me wrong
i love how he makes the world turn
i love how fogiving he is
i love how he has saved my life a quite a few times
i love how he is always by my side
i love how he never falters
i love him for not lettin me have every thing i want
i love how he deals with people that wrong me
i love the he cools me down when no one else can
i love how he sedates all my hungers
i love how i can call on him an he is there
i love how he listens to me
i love how he remembers everything i tell him
i love how he knows me better than i know myself
i love how he is all i need
i love that no matter what i do, he will always love me
i love how he knows more than anyone ive ever known
i love him more than ill ever know
i love how he asks so little of me
i love him because i cant help but not to........
so go ahead message me asking who i am refering to?? maybe you might be right!! ha ha ha ha
go on ask me.....
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ok all... all who view my blogs... my poetry... an all who veiw me an my life as it stands.
I was just wanting to tell you Im sorry for neglecting this site of mine. Im going to post what i have wrote on my myspace blog in here then ill make a good effort to keep up with this site!!
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
a simple poem about love.....
i was just reflecting to myself in the kitchen a few minutes ago about what i have observed in my life thus far..... and started to ryhme.... so im bloggin it....
what can make a person weak?
make you fall to someones feet,
even though you know they are practicing deceit,
love is what makes you weep,
like the juice from a cut rose does seep,
what can make you feel defeat?
a lover gone wrong with whom rose color you see.
who is worth your last drop of blood you do bleed?
of couse the one whose inner beauty does gleam.
as the lambs will before the slaughter bleat,
as so for you my heart does beat.
thou does know you wander of who i do speak,
for only time will tell in this game we try to cheat,
only honesty, loyalty are true to those who do seek,
this is not for the hearted who are meek,
nither of the ones who are cheek.
but the ones who truely need it are the bleak
they are the ones who need it more than a perfectionist neat,
ones who are lacking that sense of inner peace,
those whose anger and hatred does seethe,
afterwards a calm mind does follow after a mended breach,
so tis truth one does breathe,
if said love is such a need.
i have more of this poem... or what ever you might call it.... i am just too tired now to finnish it.... *tryin to laugh......
ha ha ha... yea.... well needed to find another way to tire myself out tonite.... routine was a lil' diffrent tonite folks!!
TO BE CONTINUED.......
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Friday, September 29, 2006
some times i wander about my self....i just feel down for no reason. Think it might be from being to happy at work. *laughs her ass off
yea, well since i was last on here, that guy i was falling up for....yea, we are kinda good friends..... which i am comletely happy with. i like being single, i am just a lil' lonely! ha ha ha.
for freedom that is a small price to pay.
of course i have a small amount of loving and cuddling from certian guy friends..... wink wink
you know who you are!! *waves to them grinning ear to ear
i am now a powwow and festival vendor now!
BIG LIFE GOAL ACCOMLISHED.......
ever since i was little i always dreamed of vending at powwows! selling the things i made. and the social life of a vendor, very rich! yea sweeti! rich rich rich! almost like family ties! ahhhhh
dreams are so fun to have and even more fun when they come true! yessssss!!!!
i learned to make native american frybread! and it is great!
also taught myself to crochet (with help from my mother) less than a week ago, making a poncho and have messed it up already!
havent drank but once since my birthday in june and have an unopened bottle of baileys in the fridge, the big one...ya....ha ha ha
i might start selling my flash art....so heads up....keep lookin at ppls tats, you might just see my stuff on their hydes!!! *blows a kiss
i started reading a book by Dr. Wayne W. Dyers......Being in balance, here is a link to the book...
http://www.onespirit.com/doc/full_s...ryId=096920B115
if i were you i would check it out...much wisdom to be held in one hand..... life changeing material!! READ IT IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOR THE BETTER OR HAVE A BETTER UNDERSTANDING OF YOUR LIFE, OR TO HAVE A BETTER OURLOOK ON LIFE....OR TO GIVE YOU THE OPTION OF A BETTER HAPPIER LIFE!!
READ IT!! READ IT!! READ IT!! HA HA HA
(sorry had to get that out of my system! lol)
i still have yet to learn to play guitar.....i will....it is going to happen, i might go fishing tomarrow! the fella im going with is from johnstown and plays guitar in his band so im sure he will help me out a lil'! maybe if im lucky!
wink wink*
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
okay pplz,
i know im not a man, but this is what the test ppl at okcupid said bout me!!
i am a super hero!!
reowwwlll!!
| Conan the Barbarian You scored 68 con resolution, 72 assertiveness, and 73 action! |
| Man, you get right to it, don't you? You don't know how you're going to fix the problem, but that doesn't keep you from tackling it. You eat food like a pig and probably have sex like one, too. Don't worry, there's nothing wrong with either of these things. Some women love a man who is just pure animal, especially in bed. Growwwwl!!!....Crom... |
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Monday, August 21, 2006
i think i am falling up....
yes, i know it sounds weird. It kinda feels weird, but nice.
Kinda like falling in love. only different, kinda falling in like.
Only you once fell for that special person before, twice over, an you had kill the feelings twice over.....
Like I said, weird.....
The problem is I run from love, so it makes it really really hard for me.
I kill it as soon as I realize it snuck in the back door....it only causes pain an suffering.
at least in the past it has,...
my health will not permit much pain any more, for the sake of my beating heart i am trying to protect....
so love, it can wait til I'm ready, but liking someone is aloud this time!
take care and may the creator bless thee....in many ways
redfeather*~
08-21-2006
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
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Friday, August 04, 2006
When I was around seventeen, this very strong urge came over me to just get up and go.
It drove me crazy as i remember,
I kept wanting to leave everyone I knew and cared about.
It even was strong enough to make me not worry about losing my job.........
I had no thought or care for the ones who would notice and experience
No feelings of regret or remorse.
My mind kept on trying to detour the connection
because I never listened to that
:
it refers to luck
it refers to love
it even refers to unwanted or unneeded happenings,
but most of all it refers to life.....
This is just the way i veiw the world,
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Sunday, July 30, 2006
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Friday, July 28, 2006
THE...CONCERT...ROCKED....JULY 25TH 2006
ASS Current mood: anxious
Category: Music
OOHHHHHH MY SWEET GOD!!!
If it werent for him i wouldnt have been there!!
i won the tickets to O.A.R. thrue wnci, and it was weird....
the question was "whats in matts boxers?"....its brown, squishy, and leaves a nasty stain!!
right away being a woman i told my friend amber "CHOCOLATE", and then she got her phone out and curious i asked who, and she replied"hell im going to win those tickets!"
of couse she was the one driving since i dont know how, so she said she was going to give it up.
i told her id keep trying, so i rushed to get my cell and started to call and call and call, and it rang and so used to hanging up i took and pushed the red button once more!!
SHIT
SO I CALLLED BACK REALLY FAST AND IT RANG AGAIN!! A GUY PICKED UP AND I COULD BARELY HEAR HIM, SO I PLUGGED ONE EAR AND LISTENED TIGHT WITH THE OTHER!! HE ASKED ME WHAT THE ANSWER WAS AN OF COURSE I TOLD HIM "CHOCOLATE". HE SAID THAT WAS THE RIGHT ANWSER AND TOLD ME WERE TO PICK THE TICKETS UP AT AND WHAT THEY WERE FOR, BUT HE WAS SO FAINT I COULDNT HEAR!
after i got off the phone amber asked what the tickets were for and i told her i had no clue!!
SHE SAID WHAT!! YOU HAVE TICKETS AND YOU HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THEYRE TO?? YOUR NUTS!!
i said "well i won, ive never won anything like this before"!!!! ive never called into a radio staion before!
she made fun of me the whole way to family video! and then when we got there our friends we were hanging with from work, made fun of me too. cuz i was screaming in the parking lot
(i was so exicited)!!
finally it came on the radio
and i was on it!! yes!!
so i took an listened to it closely......
an it was concert tickets!! yes!!
keep in mind ive never been to a concert
, so i was exuberatant, flutterby, oberly exited after that! and i screamed again!! yes again!
so i took and requested the day off work and told ever one i met(just about)!!
and then the day came!
the day of my first concert, what was weird was that when both me and amber woke up, we both felt like we were in a foreign counrty?? ive been to england and she went on a missionary trip...so thats both how we've felt, but shes been to a concert before, i haven't.....we still have yet to figure that one out!!
so we got ready to leave and left got the four cameras(disposeable) and hit the road to columbus!! YEA!! we decided to go to buca di beppos for lunch then hit the line, we drove by the pavilion at 2pm and there was already people lined up....yea!! this was going to be great, so we ordered the small spagetti w/meatballs and the garlic bread with mozzerella cheese, we got the kitchen table, which is locatated right in the kitchen (kinda). ate while amber gawked at the waiter, wasnt bad lookin but not the greatest.
after we ate we walked back to the car with our leftovers(which i ended up pitching) finnished getting ready and walked to the lines...which still wasnt bad. we sat in line for about three hours, which was fun too. i took some pics there too.
then they opened the gate, wow adrenaline rush, and i take a beta blocker!! they scanned my ticket and i got to enter i had a hard time keeping up with amber, but i finnally did about around the corner!
then we seen the stage,........... WOW!!
WE WERE HERE, FINALLY!!
WOW, MY FIRST CONCERT!
YES YES YES YES!
NOW I CAN EXPERIENCE WHAT MY DAD ALWAYS TALKED ABOUT !!!!!!
So we waited and waited and waited some more, me and amber managed to get third row from the front, which wasnt bad.... concidering, how many people was there!
wow! i was actually there!
so i told every one it was my first concert and they said they were going to leave as soon as jacks manaqiun left, so i was set!!
Some guys moved around and people started to get anxious, then they came on!! wow great times! the bass guitarist kept his eyes on me almost the whole time!!lol! they left and the crowd shouted play one more song over and over again, they were gone... so those girls took and left.
i took theyre spot and me and amber got the bar!! front row baby
IT TOOK FOREVER and then.......
O.A.R CAME ON!! YEA! MY BAND, YES YES YES!!
and they opened with the song about columbus!! i didnt know any of the songs so i felt like a dumbass.... after awhile they played some thing i knew!!
HEARD THE WORLD!!
I FINNALLY GOT TO SING ALONG, I WAS JUST GETTING INTO THE MUSIC AND KINDA DANCIN BEFORE
AND THE BAND NOTICED THAT, SINCE I WAS IN THE FRONT ROW....AND THEY GOT KINDA EXITED WHEN THEY SEEN ME SINGING!!
LOVED IT EVERY MINUTE....ALMOST....
THEYRE WAS A SIGN POSTED THAT SAID
"BY BANDS REQUEST -CROWD SURFING IS PROHIBITED"
WELL THAT DIDNT STOP THEM!! ABOUT HALF WAY THROUGH THE SHOW IT GOT REALLY HEAVY!!
AND THE EVENT STAFF HAD TO GET THEM BACK ON THE GROUND,....RIGHT OVER THE FRONT ROW HEADS!!
SO I GOT KICKED IN THE HEAD!! LOL!! YEA, IT WAS KINDA FUNNY THOUGH!!
FIRST CONCERT YEA!!
THE LEAD SINGER MARK!! HE LOOKS JUST LIKE ONE OF MY FRIENDS, A GUY I USED TO WORK WITH, AND KINDA CRUSHED ON FOR AWHILE,....AND ALL THE PEOPLE THAT I WORK WITH KNOW WHO IM TALKIN BOUT....LOL!
WELL WOW YET AGAIN, I STILL HAVE THE ADRINALINE RUSH!!
AMBER WAS GETTING READY TO PUNCH SOME CHICS THAT WERE BEHIND HER SO SHE HAD TO LEAVE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PERFORMANCE, KINDA SUCKED THERE WITHOUT HER....
SHE TOLD ME LATER THAT SHE ENDED UP PUNCHING SOME CHIC THAT WAS LIGHTING A BONG....LOL! HER BF WOULDNT MOVE SO SHE PUSHED HIM OUT OF THE WAY SO THE CHIC PULLED HER HAIR SO AMBER PUNCHED THE CHIC....LOL
I LOVE THAT GIRL SO MUCH LIKE A SISTER!!
THEY PLAYED ONE MORE SONG THAT I KNEW AND LEFT, I FIGURED I BETTER LEAVE, THE CROWD STARTED TO CHEER ONE MORE SONG AGAIN, (SO I LEFT NOT KNOWING THEY ACTUALLY WAS GOING TO CAME BACK!!) SO I ASKED THE DUDE WHO ALWAYS GAVE ME WATER TO PICK ME UP SO I COULD GO CHECK ON MY FRIEND, SO HE DID AND THE GUY BY THE GATE ASKED IF HE JUST PICKED ME UP OR IF I WAS CROWD SURFIN, ........
HE PICKED ME UP!!
so let me thrue and i noticed they started playing again.....great there goes that!!
so i called her and she said she was in the car, she got kicke out!! im like what??!!!
i left an frealized that i didnt have any merch. so i went back in and picked out an awsome tee shirt noticing i only had enough to pay for that and nothing else....so i gave the guy the money after cunting it and trying to bargin with the guy who was selling the jacks maniquin stuff, and i mysterously had ten extra!!! so i got some buttons too!!
so we drove home after getting some water in me....i was feeling kinda faint!! lol
when i got home i was so gritty from sweat!!
it was so great, and i think every concert after this is going to be wack because of how cool this one was!!
I <3 YOU O.A.R!!
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